I find myself sitting here on the couch, just sitting. Mindlessly bouncing from e-mail, to Facebook, making a play on one of the many games of "Scrabble" that I have going rather than doing things I should be - homework, and housework.
Shame on me!!!
Now, I have been totally neglecting these things. I have done and submitted one assignment, I
glanced at the online portion of my Spanish class. I have bagged up trash bin overflow, which made it much easier for my husband to take outside ;). I put boxes of cereal in the "cereal keepers".
You know, it seemed like so much more as I was doing it than it does seeing it written.
I am fast approaching the year of my 6th anniversaries - "6" years (in February) since I packed up my Grand Am and moved Florida to be with the most wonderful man. The man I married "6" years ago in June, hm...the 6th month of the year. Oh, wait lets not forget in may I will have been employed with the state for - yep you guessed it "6" years! Oh, wait since returning to school I have completed "6" courses. Our cat, Lucky, will be six years old soon.
I just glanced a a couple of blogs, you know the ones you stumble upon when you hit "Next Blog", and one that my sisters ex-husband kept. They both just set my mind to wondering back through the years. It is hard for me to believe that I have been in Florida almost 6 years. I was born and raised in Lansing, Michigan. Aside from the house I grew up in, I lived in 6 other places. Of course all in the area I grew up. I sit here in the living room of the home I share with the most loving and caring man who did not give up on me, in Florida!
I do miss a lot from Michigan. Family, and friends, old haunts. But I still get to see them when we go back at the holidays, and during the summer. Eventually I will get the trek down to where it is organized and I visit and see more than I have.
With both my parents gone, it is tough. My niece and nephew now live in my mothers home. It's not the house I grew up in though, my mother bought it a few years after my father passed away.
In one of the blogs I was looking at she mentioned her "haven" was gone. That just kind of struck me. As much as Michigan will always be home, I don't really have a "haven" there anymore. Yes, there is a house there that I am part owner in, that has many of my belongings that did not make the trip down 6 years ago, or since then....where would I put it here? We live the land where houses have no storage...so...that is where my things are basically stored. Someday they and I will be in the same state. But they are just belongings.
My niece Julie, who has a huge piece of my heart. I love her like a daughter she is the other part owner of the house, and now that I think about it I guess I do have a "haven" she is my haven there.
Well, here is to 2012! Please let it be the year where I finally get myself organized. In a lot of ways I am still just spinning from the loss of my mother. When you my dad died, yeah it hurt like hell, and I missed him, and still do. But when your last parent dies it is just a great big double sucker punch! That I am having a hard time recovering from.
Thank you to my husband who has been patient with me, he knows that hurt as he has lost both of his parents as well. I sure wish I had gotten the chance to meet them, because of them, I am loved.
Okay, I confess, this was not written all on the same day...and it is quite a jumbled bit of writing. But, it has been a bit therapeutic.....so...thanks for listening.
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