It's funny, you learn more about yourself as you grow older. At least I feel as if I am, and you do not often recognize traits you have that, well, you have often disliked in others. Perhaps it is the atmosphere you were raised in, or it is just your nature. I love my mother very much, although she tends to be a negative person. Or, maybe it is just me that picks up a negative vibe that I think is there. I realize more and more that I need to change myself. As I near 45, more than middle aged, it is proving a challenge. I sure hope my loving husband does not give up on me before I am able to purge myself of the negativity that seems to course through my veins. Don't get me wrong, I'm not negative 24/7, at least I don't think I am, or I would not have such a loving husband, he would have cut bait and ran like he stole something a long time ago.
So, how do you re-invent yourself? How do you stop seeing the glass as 1/2 empty? How do you not let the little things bug you? Inside I realize that they are not worth focusing on, yet, I still tend to let little things under my skin. How, do you change habits you have had for so long? I guess it shows me how very lucky I truly am, I have someone who loves me, and will help me to become a better person.
I have always prayed for God to bring me someone who would love me for me, and help me to become a better person. As I settled into the life of an "old-maid", living with my mother, I had given up. Then, God said, you big dummy I have already sent you the man you have asked for, you have been exchanging emails with him for years, open your eyes stupid, take a chance, you won't regret it. Okay, so maybe God would not have put it that way, but, thankfully, the light came on, and I am now sharing life with the blessing that God sent me, the man who loves me for me, and is more than willing to help me become a better person. I don't think he realized what a chore he had in store for himself, but I am pretty sure he is up to the challenge, and has the patience to persevere. He is a teacher, what person is up for a challenge and has more patience than a teacher?
Thank you, God.....and thank you, "man that I love" for blessing me....
So, how do you re-invent yourself? How do you stop seeing the glass as 1/2 empty? How do you not let the little things bug you? Inside I realize that they are not worth focusing on, yet, I still tend to let little things under my skin. How, do you change habits you have had for so long? I guess it shows me how very lucky I truly am, I have someone who loves me, and will help me to become a better person.
I have always prayed for God to bring me someone who would love me for me, and help me to become a better person. As I settled into the life of an "old-maid", living with my mother, I had given up. Then, God said, you big dummy I have already sent you the man you have asked for, you have been exchanging emails with him for years, open your eyes stupid, take a chance, you won't regret it. Okay, so maybe God would not have put it that way, but, thankfully, the light came on, and I am now sharing life with the blessing that God sent me, the man who loves me for me, and is more than willing to help me become a better person. I don't think he realized what a chore he had in store for himself, but I am pretty sure he is up to the challenge, and has the patience to persevere. He is a teacher, what person is up for a challenge and has more patience than a teacher?
Thank you, God.....and thank you, "man that I love" for blessing me....
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