Getting back on the bike!

Wow, I knew it had been a long time since I have posted an entry on my blog. So long that my husband took me off his links on his blog. He is pretty religious about posting entries on his blog, but me, I was always a once in awhile poster. Once in awhile turned into - "how do I get to my blog again?".

Well, blog world I am back. I will try and be more attentive to you.

In a lot of ways I have still be adjusting to life with out my mom in it, as I may have mentioned I always knew it would hit me hard. I just did not realize how hard. I don't expect anyone to understand, and really know one can losing someone you love is really and individual thing. Everyone accepts, or copes in there own way.

Losing the first parent sucks the breath out of you, like a sucker punch from your worst enemy - death. When you lose your last parent, wow, well to me anyway it has been quite diffacult to accept. My husband has lost both parents, and he knows, but, again we all deal with it differently.

How come we never realize how much someone means to us until their gone? When you can't call them every morning on your break, or call them to say - "hey, how do you do this?". Or call them to share the latest events in your life - "hey, guess what..." Reality bites!

It struck me the other day too, that in my immediate family all three of the loved ones we have lost have passed away around someones birthday. First my father, February 9, 1996. Four days after my middle sisters 50th birthday. Then my oldest sister, Sally, passed away on April 16, 1999, one day after her own 45th birthday. I'm now older than she ever was. Lastly, my mom suffered her anurysm on my birthday, October 3, 2008 and passed away one day before her own birthday, October 6th. I had always loved that our birthdays were so close.

I have to learn to like my birthday again....hated the last one as it made it a year since losing my mom.

My mother did so much for me all my life, and I don't think I showed the appreciation that I should have.

Well, I am getting back on the bike in many ways. I started taking classes at our community college, which is a bit daunting, hopefully I don't get a flat tire on the bike!